I've been very moody lately.
The title of this journal is from "Ticket to Ride".

I haven't updated my journal for quite some time.
I feel a bit low and depressed at the moment.

I think I'll take Benji to my dad's and he's probably going to stay there. This is a very difficult decision to make. If he's with me I feel guilty for keeping him as my "prisoner of love", for not being able to provide the living conditions that he deserves. When I think about letting him stay with my dad I feel guilty for "abandoning" my baby.
I've been thinking about this for months actually. He's had a couple of "holidays" at my dad's and he seemed to be so happy there. There's a big garden, he loves to run around and enjoys his freedom very much. When He's at home with me he eats and sleeps and does nothing.
I sometimes leave the door open for him so he can have a walk in the staircase and one of my neighbours like him a lot, but there's Mufurc, a neighbour's cat who would like to be friends with him, but Benji starts hissing and growling at him and quickly runs back home.
Benji's often bored and I feel guilty when he's sitting at the window longing to go outside.

I'm almost finished witht he kiriban piece, I should upload it in the next few days. There's another collab I'm working on and once I'm finished with these I'd like to experiment with different techniques, topics, who knows what...

My teaching's going quite well, I get on really well with "my politician" as I jokingly refer to him sometimes. We get on well, he seems to be satisfied witht the classes I give and he's polite and friendly. I never really thought I would, but I actually like teaching.

I'm pretty busy nowadays with having gone back to university and with the teaching, but I hope I'll have time and the right mood for developing my drawing and painting skills. I should start working on my thesis as well, but I just don't feel like it :/

Here are some pictures from my faves that I admire>



Thank you for all the faves, comments, watches



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If you like animal photography, check out > 's gallery


caught the 25K kiriban.
I'll try to do the painting she asked for in the next couple of weeks. Sometimes I do things ever so slowly and there are a couple of unfinished pieces I started weeks ago.

I'll stay at home with Benji this weekend so I can prepare for my new English classes. I'm going to teach English to a Hungarian undersecretary in the Parliament starting next Tuesday. I'm really nervous. The lessons start at 7 AM I'll have to get up really early three days a week and it's not the place where you can be late. I hope he's going to be OK... I don't really like politicians. The only thing I know about him is that he was born in 1977, so he's not too much older than me and the list of books he studied from.

I'll spend the next couple of days studying English books. I was given quite a few from the language school I teach at. Some of the books the guy studied from long ago and possible course books. I'm actually excited about all this.

As I'll be staying at home I hope I'll have time to work on some of my *small* unfinished paintings and some works for projects I wanted to participate in..

Thank you very much for the faves and comments and watches!
I tend to reply to comments, but I don't always leave thank you messages.




Thanks to who kindly gave me a 3 month subscription I can feature thumbnails again, so here are the features as promised>

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Only 9 people commented on my previous journal entry, so I thought I would pick the 10th deviant. I really admire her imagination and skill, so here’s >
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Do you know this song by Europe? (Europe was an 80's hair metal band)

Now it's less than 500 pageviews to go.. I wonder who will catch the kiriban. I hope it won't be more than 2 people..

I'll be gone for a couple of days with Benji and will stay at my dad's.
I'll take my new artist's journal that I bought with . I haven't written or drawn anything in it yet.

As my subscription ended I can't do proper features, but as I've been feautured by I'll feauture 3 works of the first 10 people who write a comment to this journal in my next journal entry.

Hope you're all doing well,




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I guess it's time for updates:

I will draw|paint a picture to anyone who catches my 25k kiriban and shows me a screen shot to prove it. (There are a few restrictions: no nudity, no blood, no violence etc. I'm not all that keen on doing Original Characters and max. 2 characters per picture. I don't really do anthro pictures, but this bit is negotiable.)

I'll try to pull myself together and paint something in the next couple of days.
I'm ever so slow and unmotivated these days. I re-read some of the comments I've written in the past couple of days and noticed that what I write often doesn't make sense. I start a sentence and then decide to re-formulate the sentence and I often leave words out or leave words in from what I meant to write originally. Silly me.

Benji now has a red collar with a little black bell. He's living with me and my mom and I take him with me when I go visit my dad. Benji loves to run around in the garden and loves climbing trees too.




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I'm not quite back yet, but almost.

I started commenting again today, although only on a few pieces. I've been deleting most pictures from my watch list. Sorry, they've been piling up and I still won't be back properly till probably the week after next.

My Bluebird of Happiness won first place at the 's mythical birds contest.

I appreciate everyone's comment on my previous journal entry, but I stopped replying to them as it's too painful for me to think/talk about the loss.

Greetings
(and thank you for all the faves and comments and watches )

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