I haven't been too active on DA recently and I'll be even less active in the next couple of weeks. I usually write thank you messages to new watchers and comment on your works, but started neglecting my DA page and friends unfortunately a while ago.

I have left some hints that things weren't going too well in my personal life. My boyfriend/fiance died of cancer a week and a half ago. He was diagnosed around mid February, so it all happened kind of fast. I basically stopped commenting on journals. (there have been a few exceptions of course, my commenting has become more random.

I will have to start my life anew. I'm moving back home (I have a month to empty the flat we rented. The landlords have been real a-holes about the whole situation. I'm going to take back the internet modem some time soon in the afternoon, which means that I'll only have internet access when I go "home" to my mom's.

There's a lot to organize and I'll have limited internet time and access, so I'll probably give less response to your comments/works/journals.. sorry about that.

I stopped responding to comments and faves for Blue Bird..
I have mixed feelings about the piece. I dislike the colors and quality of the uploaded version. Peter liked the sketch version of the Blue Bird of Happiness that I had been planning to paint ever since I read about the Birds Club contest. I started working on the actual piece the day he died, so this bird has nothing to do with happiness for me. I wanted to dedicate the finished version to his memory, but I don't like the way the colors turned out after all.

I think me not having internet access at home (the flat I am now, although it doesn't feel like home anymore) is quite beneficial in some way. I've wasted quite a lot of time online as a way to pass time.

I don't know what's going to happen to me. I've had quite a sheltered life up until now. I guess I'll have to grow up, get a job and sort things out. I'm a bit worried about my future. Peter was my editor, I got my translation jobs through his connections and I don't know what's going to happen to the company we/he had. I don't know what's happening about the teaching job where I've been substituting him.

I also don't know what is going to happen to Benji. My mom's place is smaller than this place he's been brought up in. The original plan was for him to go to my dad's to the country, but he lives next to a main road and I wouldn't like Benji to be ran over.

So lots of changes, lots of uncertainties and lots of sadness for me.

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